You know?

I really enjoyed this blog...it has been a way of connecting with friends and pretending I was savvy with a computer although I really only still know the very basics.

It has seen me share my husband's illness, my father's death and most recently my mums deteriorating health - huge milestones in my life that created massive change.

I have commented and read comments.

I have laughed and cried and wondered whether I have not bored everybody to death with it all.

But life has unravelled lately in a truely unexpected way and many bloggers who followed this particular blog of mine have closed down or blocked their blogs and it now just does not feel the same to continue.

For the sake of the one or two of you who are left that want to know what I get up to then please just call me on the phone or send me an email.

I will continue with my art site..blackdogartworks.blogspot.com where I will continue to post new art works and I will also be folding my other web site, www.witchybitz.com after Christmas and creating something different, maybe...or maybe not.

To all of you that still gave a shit - thanks, its been swell, I've had a wyrd time!


Web - of - Wyrd

End of year!

I had the most fantastic evening last night with my class.
It was our last evening for the year and let me tell you these girls are the best!
We had a little Christmas Party - I made my famous "little boys in underpants" ( dont ask ) and we had cake and biscuits and even Christmas Crackers with silly hats and even sillier jokes!

We talked about the story of the Christmas Tree, the history behind Carols, cards and more.

We shared, talked and discussed adding some things to the course.
I think we would have to have another class per week to fit it all in! But everything is do- able and even though we are grateful for the break, and we all certainly need it, we will look forward to get back into it.

Thank you girls for a great first half - I promise you lots of fun and more learning is ahead!

I will be heading down to visit mum and check out the new facilities and make sure that she has settled in - boy I can't wait ( not )...

Me and the Pope had a little chat..............( he he )

Funny about this, I have no Catholic based orientation anymore yet this lovely lady has always been dear to my heart.
If you have ever noticed my side bar, Mary has been sitting there for a while now, and we have been waiting patiently for another miracle to be officially recongnised.
well ITS HAPPENED!
YAY..................
she is going to officially be declared a SAINT!!!!!!!
HOW COOL IS THAT!
YOU GO GIRL!
DO I sound happy?
Indeed....she is very deserving and she is an Aussie!

My last pic for the year !

My last pic for the year my friends - finished this one yesterday.

I think that from the New Year I will only be posting new pics on my art web site - I feel that I am boring too many people with putting them here.

I think most people have defected to facebook anyway and blogging may well be becomming a dinosaur.
I dont do facebook or twitter ( although I may have to when my daughter moves away next year )I just feel that absolutely NO ONE would be interested in my life on a blow by blow basis and neither should they be!

All of you that enjoy that venture into cyber space - good luck and keep having fun.
My daughter says that its the way things are - easy to be in touch with just everybody. I get that, but there is also a part of me that says that we need to reserve some stuff just for ourselves.
I know, I AM OLD.

mmmmm...not one bush to be seen!!!!!!

Ok folks whats going on?
If I have put mu bush out on public display I would think that you are all compelled to do the same!

BUSHES PLEASE!!!!!!


BTW...Happy birthday to my gorgeous girl Monika - a very determined, headstrong and stunning young lady who turned 25 today.Blessings and good luck with all that you have planned in 2010!

"George" and Christmas Pug!

How difficult is it to put tinsel on a tree with a naughty Pug pulling at the other end?
Very!

Well the old bush has come out again!

Spent today preening and decorating the old bush...
its standing in the corner staring back at me as I blog...in a place of glory - waiting for the lights to go on.

The old bush isnt what it used to be...bits now fall off when I try to get it all together, so I end up with a little bag of bits that can no longer be used ( mmm...a bit of a metaphor for life in general..) these need to go into the bin but for some reason I just store them away..like, I cant stick them back onto the main tree can I ....so whats that all about?

A few years back the old gang had a bit of bush envy going on with a photo shoot out of their special fancy, schmancy bushes taking pride of place in their homes.
So I am laying down the rubber glove!
So the challenge is on again...come on people !
Don't be shy....
show us your Christmas bushes!!!!!!!!!
Mine is not finished yet..but will be posted very soon!

By the way ....our bush is called "GEORGE"!

LET THE GAMES BEGIN!!!!!!

JUST LOVE THIS ONE!

Am I boring you yet?
Still into these gorgeous horses....

Who pulled the plug?

I feel that I am melting today - headache and tiredness from an emotional few days.
But boy, did I know I was alive!
Sometimes when we get to those places where hurt or realisation comes to the surface it really allows us to put things into perspective.

Its a shit - but that's life - you dont always smell the roses, sometimes you have to clean the toilet too!

My family to me is sacred - I would kill to keep any of them from harm, without a doubt.
My friends are also my lifeline and they continually teach me to dig deeper and to push harder.
My beloved husband just allows me to do what I need to do and go where I need to go without ever telling me not to.I would be totally lost without him.

So yes, I KNOW that I AM lucky.
And I thank the Universe for all that I have ( except for the flabby bits!)

The long kiss goodnight...

Today I left early to go visit mum in Sydney.
Traffic was bad and it took almost three hours to get there.
Mum has taken another slide down the rabbit hole and although she looked fine, clean, neat cared for it was very apparent that she had the attention span of a six year old.
She could only hold a thought for a moment and got very excited by my arrival. She wandered around and couldnt sit with me, looking for someone to tell something to but not being able to remember what it was that she was supposed to say. She would look at me and I could see her trying to put the puzzle together. She wandered in her mind from her teenage years to the war years to the early, early after her arrival in Australia.The here and now was something that was only visited for a minute at a time.
I asked staff how she was and was told that she has been causing problems with wandering in the middle of the night and embarrasing herself, staying in other people's rooms, taking their clothes and being inappropriate.
So a decision has had to be made to move her into a high care dementia ward.
Thank God that means only moving her down the hall and behind secured doors.
There the residents are all monitored and staff are trained to take care of dementia patients - where she is now is really still a general area and there are still residents there that have all their marbles, they are just old and frail.
This was very sad today.
I understand how Anchell feels - as much as you KNOW things are going to change for the worse you can NEVER be prepared enough for when you see it happen. There is always a part of you that wishes to remain ignorant in the hope that its just not going to happen, but it does.
Mum is a stranger to herself.
Whatever she believes is good enough for now - tomorrow things will be different and she will have forgotten again.
One day soon I will turn up and she will not know who I am, and when that happens it will be very, very sad, but it WILL happen and I will just have to come to terms with it.
The most important thing is that she is being taken care of, she is eating and seems to drift in and out of a frustrated way of being. She has no major complications with her health and that is a blessing.
Another day...another step into the darkness.